Feelings all jumbled up inside
How can I keep up this life
Everyone I loved I left
Seems to me there�s no one left
If I could look at it all again
All I�d see is hurt and pain
Given something to be taken away
I live my life in total dismay
The closer I get the more it hurts
I can�t imagine a pain that�s worse
To have my heart ripped out from inside
Is nothing to having a love that died
For all the times its happened to me
I�ve cried enough tears to make my own sea
Immunize myself to all the pain
Just postpones it to a later day
There�s no escape from my past
I didn�t realize how long it would last
Depression has become normal for me
Please someone tell me how I break free
Its eating away at my soul
I can no longer feel whole
I look for all the pieces I�ve lost
For this there is no excessive cost
I won�t give up until I�m dead
God damn this voice inside my head
My mind demented by these emotions
Turning suicide into a notion
To end it all is so tempting
Anything to stop the hurting
Self abhorrence begins to emerge
It�s harder than ever to fight the urge
Going to Hell would not be a sin
It would be better than where I�ve been
Life�s torturous blades cut deep in my face
Till I become unrecognized in this place
I don�t know who I am anymore
As I lie face down on the floor
Tears flow from me like life�s blood
My emotions pour out in a flood
I can�t take this life any longer
It�s for love that I hunger
Nothing seems to be going right
It doesn�t help to hang on tight
Life loosens your grip with ease
Then grips your throat and begins to squeeze
Choke and gasp for air all I can
But this grip is tighter than any mans
As the world around begins to fade out
With all my strength I manage to shout
I won�t give up echoes through the night
And life lets go and shutters in fright
So for now I have won
But life surly is not gone
The future battle will be much worse
A win lose situation of course
Life will be prepared its no use
I must be ready to lose
Soulcatcher
